cOuSiNs

this is John Constantine...
JC or John...
the mobile one...
and a very talkative kid...





and this is Alyssa Mae...
or simply Ysa...
my "bibo" niece...
she loves to eat...







My Angels love them...
they're inseparable...

birthday!

this was the cake of Papa Bebot who celebrated his birthday
last September 20,2009...
it's nice to look at...
and also yummy too...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA BEBOT!
---eventhough it's too late!ssshhh---

missing you

i missed this...
blogging about my thoughts...
about what i've done through the day...
about My Angels...
i haven't been blogging as much as i used to...
i haven't been sharing for four months...
from july to october...
there were so many reasons...


first,i spent most of time at my kids' school during those months...
another reason for not blogging is that my own personal need to blog
is not as strong as it used to be...
then,my youngest kid got sick...
he caught dengue fever...
it was the most terrible time in my entire life...
all treatments were done to save his life...
red blood transfusion,white blood transfusions,injectable antibiotics...
his platelet count dropped to 60...
the complications went through his internal organs...
enlarged liver,fluid in his lungs...
his blood pressure went up to 190/140...
it was a nightmare for us...
but God is so good...
He gave my angel a second chance to live...
praise God for all His blessings!

--school days--

i've been so busy lately...
so little time for blogging..
school days again!
hope i can find a much longer time
so i can post a much longer blog..

i just want to ask everyone how yah doin'
will catch you some other time..
have a happy weekend!

summer vacation!

my kids loved the beach...
and so do i..
i dont know how to swim...
but i love water...
i love the sound of waves...
i love the heat of the sun...

For our summer vacation,our family went to one of Samal Island's finest resort,the Blue Jaz Waterpark Resort.
It's a nice place.The trip was tiring though.We travelled by car to Davao City for three hours,
then by barge for ten minutes.
I really hate travelling...
It makes me sick...

When we reached Samal Island's port,we travelled by land "again" for ten minutes,i guess.
i was so tired...
i wanted to sleep but i cant...
my kids feel in love with their kiddie slides...
they wanted to swim right away...
so i have no choice but to sit beside their kiddie pool and watched the kids...

seeing the smile and glow on their faces took away my tiredness...
they loved the slides...
they tried their 8-meter slides without hesitations...

we occupied the resort's "Fiji Cottage" for our overnight stay...
two cottages actually...
they have huge cottages...
we can even play football there(no..just kidding..)
but the cottage was really huge enough for all of us...

their foods were okay...
just okay...i wont give an "excellent" grade for their foods...
first:its too pricey...
second:a bit too bland...
they dont even have "cappuccino"!
can you believe it?
the foods on their menu we're just like what we ate everyday in the comfort of our homes...
they should have widened their food selections..
like those foods being served on five-star hotels or first class restaurants...
even if its a bit pricey,people would still gladly pay for it coz they're not gonna eat those foods everyday...

their service "sucks".
we ordered our breakfast at around 6:30 am...
8am came but our breakfast wer still not serve so we asked one of the the waiters to check our orders...
but he told us our orders were not forwarded to the kitchen...
what the heck!
we're waiting for nothing!
we're so hungry...so even if we're upset we ordered again and waited for another 30 minutes for the foods..


so much for a nice vacation!
but the kids did enjoyed their vacation.
they enjoyed the water...
the slides...
the sand...
the trampoline...

seeing how happy my kids,makes it all worthwhile...

Moms

mommy...mama...nanay...inang...mamang...mom..

may sound different but it only points out to a same person...
MOTHER...
--the real bestfriend
--her love is unconditional


i would like to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
to my MAMA...
my LOLA..
my MAMA ANNIE--my mom-in-law
to MAE-ANNE--my sister
to ZEN and TATOTS--my sisters-in-law
to all my relatives and friends who's also a mom...
and to MYSELF..

im so proud to be a mom...

i'm 26!

another year older...
another year of precious times with my loved ones...
another year of life...

i started my day with a prayer...
thanking God for giving me the greatest gift of all...
my life...

bEaCh!

its summer!
and it means hot...(although it rained hard this past few days)
its the best time to go to a nice beach...
we do have plans to bask in the sun...
we'd like to try the new resort in Samal Island...
the Blue Jazz Resort...
i still dont know what awaits us there...
but im sure it'll be a lot of fun...

my kids loved the water...
i guess almost all kids loved water...
they're pretty excited for our summer escapade...
i just hope our summer vacation ends out well...


*will go there on May 1...

moving on...

its not easy to move on...

i know that...

but if you have the will to do it...

then im sure you can...

ive done it...

its difficult to move on..really...

especially if its hurting you...

but you have no choice...

you have to do it...

for your own sake...

at least give a little respect for yourself...



someday you'll thank yourself for doin' it...

please stop exchanging harsh words with my friends...

its not helping you...



i knew you're reading my blog...

you and your friends...

your sis told me about it...

if you're still in your right sense of mind...

you'll know what i mean...

you'll know what to do...

"PANAGHOY SA KALINAW CONCERT"

Please watch "Panaghoy sa Kalinaw Concert".

Featuring the famous vocalist of the band "Journey"---"Arnel Pineda".

Show will be on April 28,2009,Tuesday @ KCC Mall Convention Center..

Ticket price is 50 pesos only.

Proceeds will be used to provide school supplies for "Bakwit School Children" in Sarangani Province.



To avail tickets, please look for Father Angel @ DXCP,National Hi-way,Gensan City.




Buy your tickets now and soothe your ears with Arnel Pineda's cool voice.

At the same time you're helping the underprivileged children in Sarangani Province.

Search for SMB Swimwear Model

Do you have what it takes to be the SMB Swimwear Model?

Do you have that "hot" SMB body that's the envy of everyone?

Then what are you waiting for?

Come and join the:

"SEARCH for SMB SWIMWEAR MODEL"

Here are the qualifications:

Female---18-24 years old

Height--- 5'2"-above

So hot ladies!

Grab your sexiest swimwear...

And show off your bod!!!

Show will be on May 02,2009 @ Tierra Montana Hotel.

For more info,please contact ALBERT at 09098107040.

Taekwondo Class

do you want your kids to learn self-defense,exercise,meditation and discipline at the same time?
then Taekwondo is the answer...
it is a Korean martial art...
a certain person doing this martial art uses his foot and fist...
or by kicking and punching...
it developes strength,balance,speed,and flexibility...

there are schools here in Gensan that offers Taekwondo class...
one of them is the Dragon Heart Taekwondo Gym...
for summer,they have:

MILO SUMMER TAEKWONDO CLINIC

Monday-Friday
9:00-10:30AM---------------Advance
10:30-12NOON--------------Beginners
2:00-3:30PM----------------Advance
3:30-5:00PM----------------Beginners
5:00-7:00PM----------------Advance-mix & Professional

Saturday
9:00-10:30AM---------------Advance
10:30-12NOON--------------Beginners/mix



FEE:

a.Package Deal---P1,700
Includes: *2months pay(April-May2009)
*Registration fee
*Promotion test fee or Recital

b.Monthly Basis--P500/monthly
+P200--Registration fee
+P600--Promotion test fee or Recital
_____
P1,300

c.Uniform------P1,250/one set


For more details pls. contact the ff. nos.

083-554-7948
0916-550-2038
0917-642-1868
0915-216-2406

or visit them at Dragon Heart Taekwondo Gym,National Hi-way (infront of Skycable)

And look for Ms. Tess Danao




*My kids are currently enrolled here at Dragon Heart Taekwondo Gym...
in two weeks time they've already learned a lot...
they have the best Taekwondo instructors...
and they are accommodating...
they know how to handle kids...
so what are you waiting for...
enroll your kids now!

sOrRy

What matters most to me?

It's not what...

It's who...

My Angels...

They're my life...



I remembered someone..something...

I got pregnant at a very young age..no, not very..just young...i was 18 then..

I knew the time's not right...

I'm not financially ready...

I'm not emotionally ready...

But i wanted to learn..

God knows how i've tried...



There's this friend of mine..

I don't know if i should call her "my friend"...

Okay let's just say she's an acquaintance...

She texted me this exact line...

"Kawawa ka naman.May malas na dumating sa lyf mo.May anakis ka na.Buti pa ako single

pa.Walang anak.Istorbo yan sa buhay."

I replied to her:

"di kawawa ang may anak and di ito malas..in fact,swerte ako kc binigyan ako ng anghel:-)"



Indeed, i'm so lucky to have my kids...they're angels.Every pain i've felt,physical and emotional,they're worth it.If someone would ask if i wanted to go back to my old life without my kids, i'd definitely say no.

Havin' my angels is the most memorable moment of my life.I would like to go back thru that phase over and over again.



I may not have diamonds...

I may not have expensive stuff...

I may not have a famous name to boast off..

But i'm extremely happy for what i am and what i have right now...

It's because i have my angels...

They're just right beside me...

I can hug them...

I can kiss them...

I can take care of them...

I can show them my love every single day of my life...





All i can say is i'm not "kawawa"...

In fact,i'm too blessed...

--blessed to have a family who support and loves me all the way...

--blessed to have a husband who loves me so much...

--blessed to have my in-laws who's very supportive of us and who loves us...

--blessed to have my angels whom you referred to as the "malas" of my life...

when in fact,they're my "lucky charms"...



You might ask me why am i telling you this just now...

When those text messages were sent ages ago...

I knew you'll understand me at this moment...

Because you're also a mom now...

You'll know how i feel...

Would you understand me if i say this to you six years ago?

When you were a happy-go-lucky-single-lady who thought that life is all about

"red horse beer"?

I knew what you're goin' thru right now...

It hurts right?

I pity you...

I just hope you'll get over it quickly so you won't feel the pain longer...

I feel sorry for you...

SuMmEr!

school's over...

summertime is here...

its a breather for the students...

no quizzes to prepare for...

no assignments to worry...



its free time for my kids...

lots of time for their favorite tv shows...

lots of time for their psp...

lots of time to wander around a shopping mall...



we do have plans for summer...

and one of those is to enroll them in any summer class...

maybe in a guitar class...

or in a dance class...

much better if its in a painting class...

just to keep them busy...

i dont want to bore them...

by doin' nothing this summer...

i'd like them to have a meaningful and worthy vacation...

◄fRiEnDs►

its a dull day...

maybe because of the blackout...

or maybe because my friends were nowhere in sight...

school's over..

haven't seen my friends for quite a while..

missed them terribly...

i missed those crazy talks with a cup of coffee in my hands...

i missed Yvone's rated xxx stories...

i missed Inday's sighs...

i missed Nieva's comments,good and bad...

i missed Te Jean's recipe talks..

i missed Mader's motherly advice with a loud voice...

we're crazy i guess..

you may think we had our own world while talking..

but that's us..

you can't change us..

neither we can't change ourselves..

we may have different views...

different expectations...

but at the end of the day...

we're still friends...

wherever they are right now..

hope they still get to reminisce those fun times we had...

hope they still find time to communicate with each other...

and that includes me:)

really missed you all...

*sorry but this is the only group pic i have..

i love them so much..

My Angels...

i wonder what would my life be without them..

they're my life..my everything..

they're my strength..my heroes..

EJ will be in grade one soon..

another step..

but i hope it wont be a step away from me..
you know kids these days..

they wanted freedom..

GABRIEL,he's still a baby for me..

i may sound overprotective...

but everywhere they go..

whatever they do..

i always make sure am just behind them..

some said i had to let them go..

i had to let them decide for themselves..

or i had to teach them the real things in this world..

but i cant..

just by seeing them hurt really breaks my heart..

i knew im not acting right..

i knew im overprotective..

but what can i do..

im their mom..

i dont want them to get hurt..

i dont want them to experience difficulties in life..

any mom there who let her kids get hurt?

raise your hand and give me the basics how did you do it..

share it with me..

but just make sure that while you did it..

you're not hurting yourself seeing them cry..

tHiS iS fOr yOu..(YoU kNoW wHo yOu aRe)

march 10,2009--

i opened my friendster account...
found eight friend requests...two were accepted..six were rejected..
i won't elaborate who were those rejected..
ive found two messages..one from a close friend..
the other?that's what ruined my day...
i dont want to dwell on this..
but its too much..
a too conceited..arrogant human being..
meddling other people's lives..
i cant imagine how someone in her right sense of mind can do such things..
at first she was sending me messages like as if she's a close friend of mine..
then all of a sudden,another message came..
telling me stupid things that im the one who ruined her life..
or if not because of me maybe she's not suffering right now..
why blame me for all those misfortunes that happened to her..

grow up gurl!
stop this stupidity!
you wanna ask me why these things happened to you?
its your own fault!
you made this mess yourself..
its not my fault..its not anybody's fault..
you have to move on..
got me?
MOVE ON!


why am i telling all this things now..
i dont even know if you'll understand this..
but please..at least try to understand every single word here..
its for you..its for your own good..
im not talking to you like im an expert..
im talking to you as a friend..as an ex-friend rather..
stop pestering me..or anyone close to me and *****..
we dont need you in our lives..
i dont want to see you..or even just a glimpse of you..

you knew i didn't hate you before..
its just now..
because of these stupid moves you've made..
you knew i could be your friend..
you knew you can count on me..
but you took me for granted..
remember what i told you before?
"for me past is past..it should be buried deep if its hurtin' you..
you have to forget every single details of it"
i thought you've done it..
forget about it..buried it..
but you've kept it...
worst part--you've reminded me of it..
even if you knew its hurtin' me..
even if you knew it upsets me..
hope you'll come to your senses..
and you'll understand that these things you've done..
its not makin' you happy..
it only worsens your hatred..
it wont bring you up..
it will only drag you down..
GOOD LUCK!

...love this song..

"now being without you
takes a lot of getting used to
should learn to live with it
but i dont want to
being without you was all a big mistake
instead of getting easier
its the hardest thing to take
im addicted to you baby
you're a hard habit to break..


"nice song right?its from Chicago..one of my fave bands..the same band who brought us "HARD TO SAY IM SORRY".."YOU'RE THE INSPIRATION".."IF YOU LEAVE ME NOW"..and the best of them all--i guess;)--""WILL YOU STILL LOVE ME"...

hah!i forgot to tell you the title of this song..its HARD HABIT TO BREAK--about a man who cant get over his feelings with someone whom he took for granted back when they're still together..so sad..

but that's life..that's love..why hold on if he/she's not happy with you anymore..you just have to let him/her go..even if hurts so much..even if its tearing your heart into million pieces..you have to let go

---dont take anyone for granted..you maybe happy..he/she may looked happy..but you
knew--or maybe you're just trying to deny it--that he/she's not happy with you..

LOVE is not just about love..its also about RESPECT and FREEDOM..there may be other aspects of it..but remember those two are always included to have a healthy relationship..

am to cheesy today..maybe because of that song am currently listening to while making this blog..
Belated Happy Hearts Day everyone..
hahaha..got nothin' to say...

cravin' for pasta..coffee..

yeah im craving for pasta..specifically with white sauce..using rigatoni pasta..
Zen--my sis-in-law made this delectable rigatoni pasta recipe with white sauce..
i forgot the name..silly me..so forgetful..
you see i only love to eat..eat..eat..and there were times that i dont even know the name of that certain food im eating..
gotcha!!
its Baked Rigatoni with Bechamel Sauce..its really delicious..with melted cheese on top of it..hhmmm..so yummy..
pair it with Granita from Fagioli..
which reminds me--have you tried Fagioli's Durian coffee?
its so creamy with real durian bits in it..
got to try it once more--
gotta go now..im going to Fagioli and have my coffee break..hahaha
and for my pasta craving?i made spaghetti sauce,mix it with elbow mac,put cheese on top--lots of cheese..put it in an oven until the cheese melts..
pasta?CHECK!
coffee?CHECK!
now all i gotta do is find that book im currently reading..
The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho..
my thursday aftie is done..
so long everyone..
thanks for bearing with me...hehehe

bored..

im feelin’ bored tonight..
i need a cup of coffee to boost me up..
or a cup of hot choco maybe..
a pizza..or a pasta..
my comfort foods..
grrrr..foods again?
its just an hour ago since i last ate..
and now im feeling hungry again..
lemme’ check mah tummy..
no sounds..no growls..
uh..uh..am not hungry..
maybe am just really bored..
my kids are asleep..
my hubby?lemme’ check again..
hhmm..he’s playin’ PSP..
actually..a while ago,am readin’ a book..
“confessions of a shopaholic”
interesting..
funny..
but i dont feel like reading now..
so am here..
stuck with our pc..
tryin’ to figure things out..
sounds odd..
what are those things am tyrin’ to figure out?
you dont know?
well i dont know either..
hahaha..
maybe am just sleepy..
but am not..i guess..
i wanted to do a certain thing but i dont know
what it is..
hhhmmm…
too much happiness..

KIDDOS

Esmael James--my eldest son--

--Esmael to his classmates--

--Kuya Ej of our family--

Gabriel Benedict--my youngest--

--Gabriel to his classmates--

--Chockie of our family--



Time flies so quickly. My little boys are now growing up. For now they would still allow me to accompany them to school, even to their rooms. I know time will come that they'll tell me

"Mama, we can go to school on our own." That would make me feel sad..

I knew i had to let them go. To explore on their own. But i can't help but worry..

How can i let them go? With those bad stuffs outside just waiting for their next prey.

With their circle of friends, which we dont know whom to trust or not.

Those were only few of the reasons why im having doubts to let my kids go out on their own.

Its my worst fear..

To see one of my angels get hurt.

Now, all i can do is pray and ask for guidance.

For my kids to take the right path.

For them to grow up with trust and faith in Him.

And may they always love God, their family and themselves above everyone else.

another thought...


everyday’s such a great day for me…i can’t even imagine im a mom now…my friend once said i dont look like i have kids coz im a kid myself…ha ha ha…seriously,i can’t think of anything right now except for my kids.am just thinking if will they have a better future.no..not better…the best future..i’ll try my very best to give them that best future…that’s how i love them.i’ll give my all for them.mom’s like me,for sure,can understand what im talking about.if you already had those tiny tots with you now,you can’t think of anything else but those little angels…yes,they’re angels…even if they won’t listen to you,even if they threw those toys right into your face,even if they’re showing those "mastered" tantrums infront of so many people,they’re still little angels…that’s why i called my kids "MY ANGELS"—-coz they’re "angels" and they’re "mine"…

i’d like to be there for them everytime they need me…i’d like them to treat me not only as a parent but their friend as well,their confidante…have you heard the song "wind beneath my wings"?yes, i’d like to be the wind beneath their wings…who’ll guide them all throughout their journey in life…

MY ANGELS


Dearest ANGELS,

who knows how old you will be when you read this…time flies so fast when you’re having fun.when i first laid my eyes on you, i was amazed at how you resembled your papa so much.you’re still young but i can tell you’ll grow up to be papa’s little boys.even when we take turns taking care of you and soothing your tears away, you always smile when your papa holds you.

but still i don’t believe it quite matches what i went through for you, and how i love you because of that and for many reasons more.giving birth is not that easy.there’s a saying that if it were easy raising kids it wouldn’t start with something called labor.that saying always cracks me up because its true.men in general, don’t really know how hard it is, or how your body changes 100 percent because of pregnancy.but despite all these, its something i would go through twice again.knowing i’ll have you by the end of it.

its too early to say anything anyway, since its been six years, but i can’t imagine living or going back to my life before you came.i did all the partying and going out in my own time, and then you came,i guess God has His ways of telling me i’m ready for the next step.let me tell you something, i never thought i would be a mom.i still don’t feel like a mom sometimes coz i still feel like a kid myself.how can i have a baby when im still one?oh well! but if i were to be made to choose between my past and my future, i would chose my future coz you’ll be in it.

how i feel about you has no words..its hard to describe.but i’ll say this–i thought i knew love but then you came along, and you thought me the true meaning of it.i pray everyday you’ll grow up to be good boys,someone smart and intelligent.your papa and i had both the hardest time and the best time since you were born,and every single moment with you,no matter how hard,is worth it when you look at us and grip our hand.i hope and pray for nothing but the best for you,and whatever you do and decide to be in life,I WILL LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY.

I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY VERY MUCH…
MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER EXPRESS…




Love and kisses,

MAMA CHIC