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What matters most to me?

It's not what...

It's who...

My Angels...

They're my life...



I remembered someone..something...

I got pregnant at a very young age..no, not very..just young...i was 18 then..

I knew the time's not right...

I'm not financially ready...

I'm not emotionally ready...

But i wanted to learn..

God knows how i've tried...



There's this friend of mine..

I don't know if i should call her "my friend"...

Okay let's just say she's an acquaintance...

She texted me this exact line...

"Kawawa ka naman.May malas na dumating sa lyf mo.May anakis ka na.Buti pa ako single

pa.Walang anak.Istorbo yan sa buhay."

I replied to her:

"di kawawa ang may anak and di ito malas..in fact,swerte ako kc binigyan ako ng anghel:-)"



Indeed, i'm so lucky to have my kids...they're angels.Every pain i've felt,physical and emotional,they're worth it.If someone would ask if i wanted to go back to my old life without my kids, i'd definitely say no.

Havin' my angels is the most memorable moment of my life.I would like to go back thru that phase over and over again.



I may not have diamonds...

I may not have expensive stuff...

I may not have a famous name to boast off..

But i'm extremely happy for what i am and what i have right now...

It's because i have my angels...

They're just right beside me...

I can hug them...

I can kiss them...

I can take care of them...

I can show them my love every single day of my life...





All i can say is i'm not "kawawa"...

In fact,i'm too blessed...

--blessed to have a family who support and loves me all the way...

--blessed to have a husband who loves me so much...

--blessed to have my in-laws who's very supportive of us and who loves us...

--blessed to have my angels whom you referred to as the "malas" of my life...

when in fact,they're my "lucky charms"...



You might ask me why am i telling you this just now...

When those text messages were sent ages ago...

I knew you'll understand me at this moment...

Because you're also a mom now...

You'll know how i feel...

Would you understand me if i say this to you six years ago?

When you were a happy-go-lucky-single-lady who thought that life is all about

"red horse beer"?

I knew what you're goin' thru right now...

It hurts right?

I pity you...

I just hope you'll get over it quickly so you won't feel the pain longer...

I feel sorry for you...

SuMmEr!

school's over...

summertime is here...

its a breather for the students...

no quizzes to prepare for...

no assignments to worry...



its free time for my kids...

lots of time for their favorite tv shows...

lots of time for their psp...

lots of time to wander around a shopping mall...



we do have plans for summer...

and one of those is to enroll them in any summer class...

maybe in a guitar class...

or in a dance class...

much better if its in a painting class...

just to keep them busy...

i dont want to bore them...

by doin' nothing this summer...

i'd like them to have a meaningful and worthy vacation...

◄fRiEnDs►

its a dull day...

maybe because of the blackout...

or maybe because my friends were nowhere in sight...

school's over..

haven't seen my friends for quite a while..

missed them terribly...

i missed those crazy talks with a cup of coffee in my hands...

i missed Yvone's rated xxx stories...

i missed Inday's sighs...

i missed Nieva's comments,good and bad...

i missed Te Jean's recipe talks..

i missed Mader's motherly advice with a loud voice...

we're crazy i guess..

you may think we had our own world while talking..

but that's us..

you can't change us..

neither we can't change ourselves..

we may have different views...

different expectations...

but at the end of the day...

we're still friends...

wherever they are right now..

hope they still get to reminisce those fun times we had...

hope they still find time to communicate with each other...

and that includes me:)

really missed you all...

*sorry but this is the only group pic i have..

i love them so much..

My Angels...

i wonder what would my life be without them..

they're my life..my everything..

they're my strength..my heroes..

EJ will be in grade one soon..

another step..

but i hope it wont be a step away from me..
you know kids these days..

they wanted freedom..

GABRIEL,he's still a baby for me..

i may sound overprotective...

but everywhere they go..

whatever they do..

i always make sure am just behind them..

some said i had to let them go..

i had to let them decide for themselves..

or i had to teach them the real things in this world..

but i cant..

just by seeing them hurt really breaks my heart..

i knew im not acting right..

i knew im overprotective..

but what can i do..

im their mom..

i dont want them to get hurt..

i dont want them to experience difficulties in life..

any mom there who let her kids get hurt?

raise your hand and give me the basics how did you do it..

share it with me..

but just make sure that while you did it..

you're not hurting yourself seeing them cry..

tHiS iS fOr yOu..(YoU kNoW wHo yOu aRe)

march 10,2009--

i opened my friendster account...
found eight friend requests...two were accepted..six were rejected..
i won't elaborate who were those rejected..
ive found two messages..one from a close friend..
the other?that's what ruined my day...
i dont want to dwell on this..
but its too much..
a too conceited..arrogant human being..
meddling other people's lives..
i cant imagine how someone in her right sense of mind can do such things..
at first she was sending me messages like as if she's a close friend of mine..
then all of a sudden,another message came..
telling me stupid things that im the one who ruined her life..
or if not because of me maybe she's not suffering right now..
why blame me for all those misfortunes that happened to her..

grow up gurl!
stop this stupidity!
you wanna ask me why these things happened to you?
its your own fault!
you made this mess yourself..
its not my fault..its not anybody's fault..
you have to move on..
got me?
MOVE ON!


why am i telling all this things now..
i dont even know if you'll understand this..
but please..at least try to understand every single word here..
its for you..its for your own good..
im not talking to you like im an expert..
im talking to you as a friend..as an ex-friend rather..
stop pestering me..or anyone close to me and *****..
we dont need you in our lives..
i dont want to see you..or even just a glimpse of you..

you knew i didn't hate you before..
its just now..
because of these stupid moves you've made..
you knew i could be your friend..
you knew you can count on me..
but you took me for granted..
remember what i told you before?
"for me past is past..it should be buried deep if its hurtin' you..
you have to forget every single details of it"
i thought you've done it..
forget about it..buried it..
but you've kept it...
worst part--you've reminded me of it..
even if you knew its hurtin' me..
even if you knew it upsets me..
hope you'll come to your senses..
and you'll understand that these things you've done..
its not makin' you happy..
it only worsens your hatred..
it wont bring you up..
it will only drag you down..
GOOD LUCK!